Managing and Diagnosing Extreme Anxiety Disorders
If you are suffering from panic attacks, please read this article on how to stop panic attacks all together.
Question submitted by: Kenneth.
Advice given by: Jacob Markusson
Q: I went to the hospital in the middle of the night with my wife at my side. I had a rapid heart beat, and pains in my chest. We were both frightened to death. When the doctor asked me all of my symptoms he told me I was probably just having an anxiety attack.
They checked my heart and my blood pressure, gave me a few pills, and sent me home. This led to some research on the Internet, and I think I may have an anxiety disorder. I’m scared and I sometimes I think I’m dying. Can you help me.
A: First thing I want to assure you is that you’re not dying. If you do have an anxiety disorder, you are likely to imagine that you are dying. Try not worry about these kinds of “scary thoughts”. You may be surprised to hear that people who suffer with some form of GAD (generalized anxiety disorder), can actually be lucky in the long run. You may find that hard to believe right now, so take it with a grain of salt and read on.
The good news is that you are taking action by seeking professional help from medical practitioners. Anxiety disorders are more prevalent now than ever before. You are not alone. I need to stress this. You are not alone. As soon as possible, book an appointment with a doctor, and tell him (or her) EVERY little detail as far as your symptoms go. Don’t leave out anything.
Your doctor will shed some light on your condition, but don’t just take one doctor’s opinion in this matter. He or she may diagnose your anxiety disorder right out of the gate, and guide you back to health quickly, but they may have very little experience dealing with a serious anxiety disorder. They might just throw some the drugs at you. That may be what you need, but you want to find out how severe your anxiety is. Find a good anxiety disorder specialist/therapist who can help you find out what level you are at.
Different Levels of an Anxiety Disorder
There are many different levels of anxiety. Below is a short list of different symptoms that are common to anxiety sufferers. Depending on your level of symptoms, you should be able to see yourself in the examples below.
Anxiety Symptoms - Level One (thought processing)
At the early stages of a growing anxiety disorder, it’s very common to have a strange feeling of listlessness, or lack of excitement for life in general. Activites that used to give you pleasure may no longer do so. You can have feeling of pulling away from others, yet they don’t think you are. You may find your temper is shorter, and you have very little patience for others in your workplace or home. A sufferer at the early stages of an anxiety disorder often see the world through what I call, “a dirty lens”. If a person could recognize this kind of thought processing, it would be possible for them to “snap out of it”, and avoid ever experiencing the higher level anxiety symptoms, including full blown panic attacks.
Anxiety Symptoms - Level Two (physical symptoms)
After a time period in which an anxiety sufferer is experiencing thoughts similar to the description above, they will often begin to notice some physical symptoms. They will likely experience the symptoms below one or two at a time, but only intermittently (in short spurts or every day or two)
Below I list some of these (what I call level two physical symptoms of a growing anxiety problem). All cases are different, but this list of symptoms covers the most common experience.
- lack of appetite
- lack of sleep
- feeling of dread or impending death
- discomfort around groups of people
- a possible tingling sensation in the arms or legs
- IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) constant diarrhea
- extremely frequent urination
- feeling like you’re losing your mind
- scary thoughts (worried you may hurt someone) e.g. – afraid of knives because you imagine hurting or killing someone. Don’t worry….you won’t!
- constant worrying about the worst possible outcomes in your life and others
- early stages of agoraphobia and/or depression
- self medicating with alcohol and/or legal and illegal drugs
- rapid heart beat
- nervous sweating
- cramps in the stomach and abdomen area
- dizziness
- a feeling of being outside your own body (detachment)
- fear of almost anything under the sun, and this includes the sun
- thoughts of suicide
There are many other symptoms not listed here, so don’t be alarmed if you have other symptoms not in this list. You are not a special case. Don’t ask yourself, “why me”. Ask yourself, “when and where can I go to doctor or therapist as soon as possible”.
These are just some common symptoms in what I call “stage two” of a growing anxiety disorder. You may suffer from some of these, or perhaps all of these symptoms. If you are suffering from half of these symptoms, I want you to read this following sentence 5 times in a row, and breath as slowly as possible as you read this paragraph. You may think that relief from this hell on earth is impossible, but help is on it’s way.
Read now: I am experiencing a common “dis-ease” which is easily treatable, and I will seek professional help as soon as possible. I am not alone. Millions of people have experienced this same problem, and 99.9% of them recovered fully. I will trust the health professionals and make an appointment with an anxiety specialist tomorrow. I want to feel good.
Notice how I stress seeking help twice in that paragraph. You may be at a stage where you can’t even visualize feeling good again, but TRUST me, you will.
Anxiety Symptoms - Level Three (full blown panic attacks)
If you don’t seek professional medical help after experiencing the symptoms above, you may graduateto the third level of an acute anxiety disorder. Sufferers will experience all of the symptoms above on a more extreme level.
You may go for 2-3 days without ANY sleep. You may urinate constantly, and you may be in depression mode as well. Agoraphobia may be in full effect, and you avoid almost any activity, such as staying in bed period.
You may start having full blow panic attacks frequently until you only have a brief time between each anxiety attack. You can literally feel like you are falling into a black hole, in which you will never return from. This is the ugliest level of suffering, and some sufferers may consider suicide frequently. If this sound like where you are at, you need to read this paragraph below as well.
I am not alone. I am am much stronger than I think, and I am fully equipped to pull out of this. My body and mind are much stronger than I realize and I will seek professional help today. If I am reading this in the evening, I will go to a walk-in clinic tomorrow morning as soon as it opens and get help from a doctor. I will take the medication they prescribe, and I will not fear taking the medication. It won’t hurt me. I need to take action against this illness.
If you are in the third stage, I want to tell you something very important. It’s common to have a lot of “scary thoughts” in this stage. Yo may have extremely frightening thoughts of killing yourself or others, but DO NOT BELIEVE IT. This is VERY common and you are NOT going crazy. People suffering from this third stage anxiety rarely hurt ANYONE.
These scary thoughts you may be having are just a little survival trick your brain is playing with. Your brain will invent these extreme scary thoughts to replace the endless bombardment of worries you are harboring. Believe it or not, this is your mind trying to give you a break from REAL concerns that you can’t seem to deal with on your own.
This why you may be having feelings of detachment – like you are watching what is going on around you, but not in your own body. This sort of numb and fuzzy experience is ALSO a coping mechanism your brain has. Your brain is trying to give you a forced “time out” from your constant self obsession and worrying.
So please take some comfort in these words. You are going to be alright. You are going to feel good again. You are not experiencing anything abnormal. Millions of others have dealt with the exact same problem.
Do not be worried about your mind at this stage (I know you will, but take some comfort in these words as well. Your mind will not “snap”, and you will not be living in a rubber room. you are not going crazy. Your mind can handle this. You will get better and feel good again.
Do not be worried about your body at this horrible stage either. Your bowels, your stomach, your heart, your lungs, your muscles, your blood, your nervous system, are built to handle these symptoms. Don’t let any writings of doom and gloom add to your anxiety. Unless the writer has experienced an acute anxiety disorder (I have my whole life) they will not fully understand the reality of what you are going through, and they may seem way to calm as you try to explain that you are dying. By the way…..you are NOT dying. You have many year to go my friend, and there is help for you sooner than you think.
You may have lost weight to a really low appetite and a need to keep moving. If you have been suffering in the 2nd and 3rd stages of an acute anxiety disorder for an extended period of time, you may have lost between 10-50 pounds. Don’t worry about this either. You will get back on track and your appetite will come back. You may not believe me, depending on the stage you are at, but I assure you – you will recover from this.
Treatment, and Recovery from an Extreme Anxiety Disorder
Depending on the stage you are at, there is a few ways to approach your recovery. Some much better than the other.
Treatment One: If you are still in the early stage of an anxiety disorder you may be able to swing out of your funkby talking with others, making some changes in your life, educating yourself about stress (reading some good books), practising breathing exercises, etc. etc. You would be very wise to start some sessions with an anxiety therapist to help you even more. You may not need to take any medication, but it’s NOT a big deal if you do. Don’t let the ignorance of the general public con you into believing that the use of medication is a bad thing. It’s not.
Treatment Two: If you are in the 2nd and 3rd stages of an acute anxiety disorder, my advice is to get yourself to a good doctor and a good anxiety therapist ASAP. Do not refuse the medication they give you. It will not hurt you! When you hear stories in the media of people “flipping out”, and they were on a particular medication, take it with a grain fo salt. In most case when you hear about some extreme case where a person “wigged out and lost it”, it’s because they STOPPED taking the medication they needed. Usually they stopped taking their medication the wrong way, which is cold turkey. Listen to your doctors an follow the pharmacist’s instructions exactly. Ask lots of questions and educate yourself.
The first time I started taking anti-anxiety medication I read all the side effects on the bottle, and enclosed documentation, and it frightened me deeply. I thought I was experiencing ALL of the side effects, when this was just my anxiety ridden imagination causing more physical and emotional stress. I actually stopped taking the medication before it had a chance to work.
The next time I tried finally listening to the doctors I stayed with the medication and tried to have more faith in the therapist’s and doctor’s words. Within three weeks I started to pull out of the ugly third level stage I was in. I begin sleeping again, my apetitie kicked back in again, and I was slowly on my way to full recover. So don’t fear the medication. Anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication is MUCH better now. The world is long past the pill bombs such as Prozac. Paxil (which is considered old now too) , and Effexor are extremely effective if taken as prescribed. There are even BETTER meds being developed now.
Avoiding Alcohol and Mind Altering Drugs While Using Anti-Anxiety Meds
This is a VERY important discussion. I’ve witnesses friends and family start their anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medication and it did not really help them. There are two reasons for this.
One: They kept using mind altering drugs such as alcohol, and/or illegal and legal drugs, while they were using their meds. My advice is to STOP using any of these self-medication techniques. It will hamper the recovery from your anxiety disorder greatly. If you are addicted to alcohol and/or drugs (D&D – drinking and drugging), get yourself to an AA or NA meeting as soon as possible. You must deal with your addicitions if you want to recovery fully from an anxiety disorder. This will be very difficult, but you can do it. Say these words; “I want to feel good, and I am ready to make big changes in my life to do so”. You can DO it friend. Seek help. There is a virtual army of people with a similar background who will help you.
Two: Their symptoms were not really that extreme in the first place, and they were (or are) simply in the early stages of an anxiety disorder. Do you see the pattern here? If you have mild, and early symptoms of an anxiety disorder, you may NOT need medication. See a doctor and therapist as soon as physically possible so you can get professional help. Find a friend or family member that you can trust and talk, talk, talk. Just opening up about your suffering is a great start on the way to a full recovery.
If you are addicted to drugs and/or alcohol, it’s imperative to address this, be honest with yourself, and get serious about feeling good again. If you still have it in you to continue ”self
medicating”, you have likely never experienced the hell of the 3rd stage of an acute anxiety disorder. Don’t continue on with such a destructive lifestyle. STOP seeing the people you are drinking or drugging with right away. You need to take back control of your life, and make some big changes. Try not to be afraid of losing your friends. You don’t need or want addicted friends. You will never be alone. Repeat…..you will never be alone. You can perhaps start here with NA or AA.
If you see yourself anywhere in this article, I hope you seek out professional counselling and medical advice. I hope this article shed some light on what you, or a loved one, is going through. Anxiety disorders are VERY treatable now, and remind yourself this condition will be temporary.
If you believe in a higher power, remember that you will never be alone in this universe, this world, or this eternity. Don’t fear the changes you will have to make in your life. The circumstances of your lifestyle and/or your family history are likely what set you up for this anxiety disorder you may be fighting.
You can adapt, and you can recover fully. You are MUCH stronger than you realize. You are born of light and love, and you are a miracle of beauty. Keep learning.
Jacob Markusson
P.S. – I’ve just touched on anxiety disorders in this article. I will be covering aspects of anxiety in other Q&As.
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April 9th, 2011 at 1:11 am
please help me… i am tumbling down a spiral of black and ive reached out to too many who dont believe me or cant help. i am a mother of one i am a wife. ive been through so many traumatic events in my life that i cant even pin point one that made me this way…i only know, ive always felt it and its so bad now i cant stand to be alive…i have anxiety so bad i shake and tremble around people. i havent gotten a hair cut or my eyes checked in years because i feel like they might see it and think im crazy but i need to. (i wear glasses/contacts) i cant drive because i feel like i cant control anyones behavior and i might kill someone or kill my son if hes with me. im 32.i have a license and got it at 19 when my son was a few months, but, only because i had to prove to my mom i wasnt a complete loser, and i keep it up taking my drivers tests every 4 years but soon i will have to renew and im so much worse i think that i wont even try. i cant go to a store without clenching to my husband and avoiding eyes, i ask him if he has his wallet because when he doesnt i panic during the time i fish out a card and im being watched or have to sign my name. i shake, stutter, and my heart races. in the car i scream when theres no reason to, i feel foolish(thank god i have my husband, hes so patient) i dont sleep but a few hours a night, im losing weight(not a bad thing), i constantly worry and fear EVERYTHING. im on the toilet atleast 7 times a day with dieahrea sorry for bad spelling… , i drink now to try not to feel, and my whole body hurts because im so tense and afraid. i have no healh insurance…i dont have money for therapy…but i need help . my husband my son and i are all suffering because i cant stop acting like this…please…please help me
February 28th, 2011 at 3:10 pm
Hi Jacob. Before I get too involved in writing about myself, are you still around this site at all?
February 17th, 2011 at 9:21 am
Hi Becky,
Like all of us who have dealt with extreme anxiety, there obviously some kind of scary meme that your mind is running around with, and those fearful thoughts will trigger our anxiety.
The hard part is that sometimes we don’t even KNOW what is causing it. So when that happens, make sure you stick to the FACTS.
Try to remind yourself that “there is nothing to be afraid of”. You are not losing your mind, and you are not flawed. This is what most of us think when we are suffering with anxiety. We think that “there is something wrong with us”.
Visit your doctor and talk to them about your anxiety and they can recommend changing medications, or increasing the medication levels of what you are using now.
One of the things that happens allot with those who use medication is that sometimes our minds (egoic minds) can override the medication because it is in overdrive worrying about everthing under the sun. Then some folks will blame EVERYTHING on the medication.
Sure, if someone is quitting medication they can go through anxiety because there are changes taking place chemically, but with, or without medication in our system, the same rules apply.
We HAVE to face reality. We have to learn to face facts. If those facts are that there is something in our life situation that is difficult, then we can take the baby steps to change those facts. BUT most of time, there IS nothing to worry about.
Our bodies are basically alright.
We’re not suffering from any physical pain.
We’re not alone in the world.
Life doesn’t suck.
We’re not dying.
The world isn’t bad.
There is nothing “wrong” in the present moment, EXCEPT what we are thinking.
We need to turn off our mind more often than we need to use our mind.
I know very well the feeling of anxiety you have mentioned Becky. It jumps on us like a phantom sometimes and shakes us up. That phantom is our worried minds that have been hi-jacked by the frightened and worried egoic mind.
Remember always that is times of anxiety and stress that “your egoic mind can’t be trusted”, and the only correct mental response to your ego is compassion.
The only correct response to any other human being is compasssion.
And then when all else fails, remember this – there are over 6 billion people on the planet, and they are waking up every morning concerned (some more than others) about THEIR so-called problems. Take the steps necessary to remind yourself that your so-called problems and “life situation” is nothing to get worked up about.
Take a deep breath, go outside and get some fresh air, look around and look that stillness of the grass, the trees, the rain, the snow, the wind, the clouds, the sky, the birds, and the animals. Then look at the man-made surroundings too. There is beauty in all structures. Be that little baby again that sees everything for the first time. These forms and beings are real! They are beautiful – they are pieces of the stillness that is real.
Human egos of co-workers, family members, neighbors, strangers, and their opinions and judgments are not real. When you or I, or any human judges something as negative, it’s NOT real – it’s an ego-based fantasy, and that is what causes our anxiety – negative fantasy!
So ignore the negative fantasies in your own mind. Ignore the negative fantasies of the other struggling human beings as well. Try to grin and giggle to yourself when you see the negative fantasies of your own, when you are confronted with those of others.
Medication can only ASSIST anxiety sufferers, but the MOST important thing is learning to appreciate what is real around us and shrugging off what is unreal.
Please watch the video at the top of this page. Eckhart is not trying to “bend our minds” – he trying to remind us of what is real and beautiful, and be aware of our mind activity and false fantasy.
Your life is not a ruin. You are just another one of those people that is not a simple robot. You have feelings, doubts, fears……you are very much a human BEING.
And just like the wind, the flowers, the trees, and the grass…..you are beautiful too.
February 16th, 2011 at 3:47 pm
my meds worked for a year and suddenly it hits me again i feel the worst all day everyday anxiety i have ever had i get scared and frustrated because i have all the support in the world but i dont know what to do. I know alot about anxiety and depression i just want to be good and happy so why cant i get out of this slump. can it be that a different medicine is what i need? jacob?
September 23rd, 2010 at 4:01 pm
46 is not old my friend. I’m not old and I am 47. Even if we were old in clock time, that is not a problem. You are listening to your mind and your mind can’t be trusted. Quit believing every lousy thought that your mind and ego decide to throw at you. These thoughts are not real – pure fantasy.
Does your thought mean it is true? Does my thought mean it is true – NO. You and I can have all the thoughts we want and it doesn’t matter. The sun comes up – the sun goes down, the world keeps turning, the flowers keep blooming, and beauty continues. This is reality. Darkness is fantasy. Whenever you are feeling darkness your ego and your mind are ruling the day. When you feel light, and at peace, reality is ruling the day.
You have not wasted your life. Your mind and ego are telling you that. I bet you have people who love you, and care about you. I bet those people have been there all of your 46 years. I bet you MEAN something to them too. I bet if you had not lived this first half of your life their world would be a little emptier. Don’t let a selfish ego win – it’s not about what your mind and ego want. It’s for those people that you can live and get some help for yourself.
The very fact that you are not in jail, on skid row, or in a ward, is PROOF to the fact that your TRUE self has been coming through from time to time – your actual connection to reality.
Being alive doesn’t have to be a problem. Dying doesn’t have to be a problem.
I am very sad to hear about your sister. I bet you are making a bigger problem out of her passing on than she is. Am I wrong? You don’t actually believe that when our flesh dies that it means what is real in us dies? It can’t. That is impossible. What is real in us can never die, because what is real in us is this entire universe. We are matter of the same source. You – me – and any form you see. This includes the chair you are sitting in right now.
But you DO get up in the morning my friend. The real you gets up in the morning, and apparently finds time to begin helping your mind and ego calm down be finding others online who have experienced the same bad thinking. Make no mistake about it – the real you is very healthy and at peace. As soon as you learn that your mind is nothing more than a half-baked tool, and your ego is just a pest, your true self will still be there waiting for you.
Who decides what a wasted life? You, me, Dr. Phil, Oprah, Jesus, the Buddha, Johnny Lennon? NOPE – none of the above. There is no such thing as a wasted life my friend.
Did you think you had to “be somebody” to not waste your life? Did you think you had to be married and have kids to not have a wasted life? Did you think you had to be happy, anxiety free, and depression free to not have a wasted life? NOPE none of the above.
Because of your life and your mind you have suffered. Billions of human beings are suffering from the same problem you are having right now. They are not wastes of life. When you call yourself a waste of life it is false.
Because you made this comment on this site today, I have responded, and between the two of us we have helped someone else who suffering today.
So now you have something against vomiting? Screaming too? If we could all be so lucky. Purging is a good thing sometimes.
OH NO YOU DON’T live a TINY life!
OH NO YOU DON’T live an empty life!
You are living a very BIG life! HUGE in fact! Your mind and ego have convinced you that you are living with MASSIVE and HUGE PROBLEMS! Your mind (which can’t be trusted) has taken control and convinced you that you are a HUGE FAILURE!
All complete bunk. Possible too that your mind and ego have convinced you that you are ugly in appearance and that you are not a “nice” person. Complete falsehoods. You are a wonderful and beautiful human my friend – your mind has been a very busy little bother, and is not the real you. Turn it off. Give it a break. You don’t need to do any thinking Alix.
Get up Saturday morning. Take a bath. Get cleaned up, get dressed, and go for an hour long walk. Sit somewhere and put your hands in the grass. Tell yourself that this day is not about your mind and your thoughts. You are going let your body (which is real) enjoy some movement.
Find someone you know and do something nice for them, and while you are doing it, tell your mind and ego that they are not having this day. Tell them that it’s NOT about them, it’s about someone else, or something else – a dog, a cat, a person, a garden. Tell your mind and ego that you have given them enough of your body, and that they don’t get to have ALL of you anymore. They get a little bit once and awhile.
Failure as defined by our society is a wonderful gift. You are so lucky to fail in the eyes of your mind, your ego, and our society. This failure in their eyes means that the real, beautiful and powerful you is stronger than their temptations. When are you going to realize that the real you is a genius – a perfect moderator who does not need worldly success.
Your right Axil. Not everyone can be “fixed”. Actually NO-ONE can be fixed……
BECAUSE WERE NEVER BROKEN. YOU WERE NEVER BROKEN.
People love you and need the real and beautiful you. Please watch the video directly above.
September 23rd, 2010 at 7:12 am
I am old (46) and have wasted my entire life in depression and anxiety. Two things make me nervous: being alive and dying. My sister is dying of cancer, I am getting older with a wasted life and can barely stand to get up in the morning. I can only imagine that, the older I get, the worse I will become, until I spend all my days vomiting and screaming uncontrollably.
I live the tiniest, emptiest life you can imagine. I have always been too frightened to live anything else. And what makes it worse is that I had potential.
Not everyone can be fixed.
July 29th, 2010 at 5:47 pm
I have been depressed my whole life it seems but during the past year it has escalated drastically. I am constantly worrying and it making my body feel and see the effects. At first I was constantly worrying about high blood pressure even tho now I know it was white coat syndrome, and now i has rapid heart beat upon standing. Its making me go insane! I was on Prozac for a couple weeks and made things worse; I was then put on Paxil which probably ruined my life more. I didnt feel increasingly depressed on it but the side effects were crazy. Ive been off for over a month and still have headaches from the drug,(tinnitus, coldsweats, ect) idk what to d. I juss want to be back to normaland enjoy life again. I heard cimbalta might be good? any suggestions?
May 2nd, 2010 at 6:09 pm
Hi, I have been suffering with increasing anxiety and panic disorder for the past 3 months. It has now got a stage where I feel like my breathing is abnormal and I am going to die at any moment. i also have anxiety about going to sleep in case I die in the night. This is coupled with some OCD, agoraphobia and fear of being in a car. I also have a fear of being too far from home.
I am currently finishing my 3rd year of a uni degree and have been very stressed with deadlines, plus lots of other issues. I have also have bad hayfever and allergies which have impared my breathing, while the stress seems to have brought back Asthma, something I havent had since age 16 (im now 27).
Having read yoiur article, I am certain that I have been in stage 3 for a week at least now, and it seems I have little time between feeling panicked and just plain ill. I also have an annoying cough and breathlessness from time to time. Also I have picked up a habit of feeling my heart to check its beating or if it’s beating too fast. When I am at my worst I’m comvinced I have a terminal illness (because of the cough and breathlessness), but when I come down, it seems ridiculous.
Reading your article did help me to come down from a very bad episode, and I have decided to go and seek medical help tomorrow. I did have it this bad about 5 years ago and was prescribed anti-depressents by the doctor but they didn;t really make me feel better. I’m hoping that this time they can help me on the road to recovery.
I’m so sick and tired of not feeling normal, or happy, or seeing any kind of future ahead of me…
January 4th, 2010 at 11:49 am
On second thought VR…..you are absolutely right! I am editing this post.
Thank you for mentioning this too me.
Have a great 2010!!!!!!!!!!!
January 3rd, 2010 at 9:08 am
This article does not suggest the equation you are assuming;
PERFECT = PINK
Take it easy VR. It’s just an expression. You have demonstrated exactly how “us humans” (in a variety of colors
can get worked up about the smallest things and see a negative.
The fact is we are all born perfect, and since I am white skinned, and come from a white background, then it would make sense that I would use this old expression. If I was black skinned, then I might have said “perfect and black/brown, etc.” – whatever.
What you did was read an article intented to help people (like you perhaps) and FOUND a few words to get angry about. If it wasn’t those words you found offensive, then if you kept reading the blog may have found other words to get torqued up about.
If you were having a “good day” and in a “good mood”, you would have read the words “perfect and pink”, and grinned or chuckled to yourself thinking…..
“Hmmm, this guy must be white.”
Simple. Of course a white guy could describe a new born baby as being pink. Makes sense. If I heard a brown skinned (black skinned, etc. and whatever) person describe a new born baby as “perfect and brown”, I wouldn’t be the slightest bit offended.
You are not a victim of anything, and as soon as you believe that your world will change for the better.
Anyway, my friend – we’re all born PERFECT, and the sooner we ALL start getting over all this RACE CRAP the better this world will be.
Jacob
PS – I have two best friends. One is Jamaican and the other is Malaysian. Besides, I live in Canada and we don’t buy into all this PC bullsh*t. Call yourself a victim and you shall be a victim.
January 2nd, 2010 at 11:54 pm
“Perfect” is now equivalent to being “pink,” as in caucasian? So if I wasn’t born “pink” I wouldn’t have the right foundation to return to normal? This article was pretty helpful but that line was pretty offensive and unnecessary.
December 16th, 2009 at 5:43 pm
I just wish somebody could wave a magic wand and take it away. Its not fair, right now I want to be dead.