Today I want to talk about the end-state of extreme anxiety. I truly believe, and have witnessed in my own life, that experiencing extreme anxiety is a portal to absolute freedom – at least it is meant to be. To truly find absolute freedom during your brief stay on planet earth in the now-here, you must have a portal – an open door – a way “in”, so to speak. So today we are going to discuss how your so-called “negative” anxiety may be the most important gift of your life. I have another post which describes your anxiety as a gift, but today I want elaborate on this theme in completely different angle.

The Portal

There are 6-7 billions human beings on this planet right now, and everyone of us is here for the same reason – to find their portal. We are here in a physically manifested human body with the fortunate opportunity to transcend the very physical form we are co-mingling with. How each of us finds their own portal to freedom – aka, God, Heaven, Enlightenment, Nirvana, The Truth, is different. Not completely different, because there will be thousands who find the gateway and enter heaven on earth in a VERY similar way – such in our example of extreme anxiety. Thousands more will be faced with some kind of tangible “real” tragedy in the loss of physical form. This can be the loss of a loved one or family member due to a tragedy of some sort (although I know longer belief there are any tragedies, which I may explain later). It may be a loss of form in simple material items and/or wealth. If a human being decides that material wealth is everything to them and attaches themselves to their material wealth, and they lose it, it may be enough of a shock to their value system, that they will be guided to their portal to freedom – consciousness.

All it takes to find The Portal is to attach yourself to any kind of label, or form based “thing” hard enough, and it may lead to the beginning of awakening, and as The Buddha put it, The End of Suffering. Of course you can’t see The Portal, or walk through The Portal with any kind of man made attachments. You can only enter The Portal naked. Naked of your mind, your ego, your physical attachments, your past, your future, or your Good Sam’s Club membership card, and the wallet you keep it in. I’m not suggesting you literally sell or give away all your belongings. I’m suggesting you remove any attachment to “your things” and “your labels”. Honor the things around you that you “own”. Look after them, and enjoy them, but don’t call them yours because they are not yours. Your things are simple made up of the different elements of the periodic table, and will someday be particles in some other thing(s) millions of years after your current flesh body has been recycled as well. As the child character Stewie from Family Guy says to his mother in one of the episodes, “Let if GOOOO Lois”.

So if you have found yourself reading Saneadvice.com because you wanted to find some answers to your anxiety problems, or the anxiety problems of a family member, you may have accidentally stumbled on to something much bigger than curing anxiety and anxiety symptoms. You have stumbled across the beginning of the most important education of your life – in fact the only true education in your life.

As a sufferer of anxiety, and the ego-based fantasies of the collective human race, you have some very different choices to make. One; you find some sort of addiction to dwell in – such as alcohol, drugs, gambling, sex, work, sports, entertainment, etc. etc., or Two: you stay stuck in your extremely unhappy rut and make all those around you unhappy in the process, or Three; you start your upward ascent to enlightenment while you are still in the flesh (all human beings are from pure light and will return to pure light – it’s just that most in this current century will have to wait until their flesh dies before experiencing pure consciousness). Choice one and two are the most common because they are the easiest, and suit the ego’s demands. Choice three requires a leap of faith, and involves a prolonged effort whereby the ego is denied.

This is why the more extreme humans find nirvana and enlightenment. The so-called “great sinners of earth” (using the true definition of sin; “being off track” and “out of connection with universal energy) often awaken before those with mild ego related diseases, because they can no longer suffer so intensely. They HAVE to make a change. They HAVE to either set themselves on the path to enlightenment or perish their flesh. For those who suffer from mind and ego domination just enough to make them constantly “grumpy” and “unsatisfied”, but never completely reckless and lost, they may never find true and full awareness because their life is tolerable. They are aware of their true state of being JUST ENOUGH to live with some kind of sanity.

In some cases these extreme human beings wander from one extreme point of awareness and consciousness, where they are pure love manifested in flesh – helping hundreds, thousands, and millions of people on their way to enlightenment – and then make a sudden reversal into absolute ego (insanity) and cause great suffering and personal trauma for a great number of people. A perfect example of this would the Reverend Jim Jones, of the Guyana Mass Suicide/Murder incident in the 1970′s where almost 1000 men, women, and children of all ages, races, and backgrounds ended their flesh experience on earth. This is still considered to be one of the greatest tragedies of the 1900′s. You can see many examples of this in other humans beings in bigger and smaller forms. Fortunately, this is not your fate, and even more fortunately, the future of earth will see less and less humans fall deeply into the insanity of the 160% proof ego state (Hitler and his fellow Nazi leaders being prime examples of pure ego state).

You Are Not “Whatever You Put Your Mind To”

So the portal can be anything you have been putting “your mind to”. The old affirmation that parents often give their children; “You can be anything you put your mind to”, is as false as any statement. The truth is that you were born perfect and deep inside your inner body of pure light, you are still perfect. Your mind is just a tool, and usually a useless and harmful tool. If you work hard and focus on something that is divine, and is a result of you true essence, then the so-called positive outcome of “success”, as looked upon by the collective human ego state will happen. But, if you put your mind to something that is not of your true essence, then it is doomed to “failure”, as perceived by the collective human ego state. However, if your great and wonderful failure leads to intense anxiety and suffering, then you will be given the most important opportunity of your life – entrance through the portal to enlightenment. If you can see the paradox in these statements, then you can see the wondrous paradox of human existence.

When Extreme Anxiety “Takes You” The Portal Is Not In View, But It’s There – It’s Always There

When extreme anxiety takes takes you, it’s simply your ego taking you, in the sense that your true self is being muted too much by the ego and mind state. You have fallen victim to the ego’s need to have everything it wants, and everything in the order it wants it. This is a bitter pill to swallow for most people in depths of their anxiety swings.

When you are in the deepest throws of your anxiety state – when your mind is trying to be the boss of your moment(s), you are not going to see the portal, but it is indeed their right in front of you. Your ego and mind can only throw up a temporary cloud of smoke and fog in front of your portal. Your ego and mind can make such a mess of the ever sacred “now” that your portal will be completely blocked from view, and your ego will convince your mind that life is nothing but a foggy and smoky hell hole. The irony here is that when the ego and mind are subdued even in the slightest, your true essence sees the portal right front of it’s face – even more accurately, the portal is inside of you and always has been. This metaphor of “the portal” is simply a way to try and explain the reality of your existence on earth.

What religions and believers always eventually lead to, is that we are going to enter some kind of kingdom of heaven, and they usually tell their flocks that they must die before they see their doctrine’s version of nirvana. The truth is that ALL human beings will “enter the kingdom heaven” or “walk through the portal” when they die, but we don’t HAVE to wait until we die. We can find enlightenment and enter now!

So when you are suffering from extreme anxiety, remember that it’s just your mind and it’s friend, the mind, throwing up fantasies and fallacies creating smoke and fog. It’s all make believe, even if it’s a tangible and so-called “real stress” in your life. The good news is you may soon be on your way to finding the portal.

When Your Anxiety Settles Down and The Smoke Has Cleared

When your anxiety and stress settles down, and the smoke has cleared, you have a choice. You can ramble and wander on in the same way you have your entire life until now – trapped and controlled by your mind and ego; or start reading, listening, and learning from the great teachers of our times, and past times.

You can choose to learn how your mind and ego work together to create suffering and madness in your life and others lives. You can choose to surrender to “The Way”, and to the universe, and find out that you are a piece of the universe. You can learn how you to focus your energy on what is real, and stop judging the false as bad. The false is always a portal to truth. You can begin opening your mind an choosing never to let your ego and mind ever control an entire day, hour, or even one minute of your life. (the truth is that our egos and minds will always TRY to interject themselves).

You don’t condemn you ego as mind as WRONG – you only witness your ego and mind with a loving glance and a wink. When you see your mind judging others and agreeing with your ego based fears, don’t beat yourself up over it. Just watch and observe with a loving smile. Imagine your true self, which is pure love and kindliness, floating outside your body as a witness, watching your mind, body, and ego react to another ego, or circumstance. This entity you have imagined floating outside the situation is the REAL you. This is the essence of truth and love. Is eternal and forever. It judges no-one and nothing. It is pure consciousness, and it is “The Way”.

So today start being a witness to yourself. Don’t just see everything and everybody as separate from you. See yourself as a part of the entire make-up of mankind and human existence in this universe. If you start to have moments when you feel physically lighter, and moments of pure joy – well then you have tasted the sweetness of reality – you have tasted your destiny. You are walking to the portal.